Regret

Marooned on the island of regret many times
For heartfelt losses and imagined crimes
Finally jumped on the ship of Hope sailing by
Rather than become an old man waiting to die
Went a distance but regret made me burn
Thoughts went back to lost souls..never returned
And as my mind..filled with dread
Realized I had been pulled back to the island of regret
Seemed that nothing was learned
Frittered away freedom well earned
Tired, frustrated...resigned to my fate
A void devoured me,my love,my hate
But somehow hope helped me stay afloat
Will helped me build my escape boat
Grabbed it with both hands and swam across
The chance to gain tomorrow over yesterday's loss
Navigated those sodden nautical miles
But longing eyes gazed upon me; not the expected smiles
Remorse filled me to have caused so much pain
All my efforts had gone to vain
Ephemeral victory leaped to its death
Was back to the island of regret
There I was again......waiting to die alone
And then Hope decided to have me flown
Took to the wings; soaring high
Seemed Destiny had cast me a lucky die
But then I entered those clouds of doubt
And my flight nosedived straight south
Then it was..certain as death
That I was back on the island of regret...